How to destroy a vasana (example 3): Julia’s father

Earlier posts in this series are here and here. Before I published this article, Julia checked it for accuracy and made a few changes. She told me, “I got goosebumps and felt tenderness in my heart while I read it because this was the night my heart chakra opened.” How the vasana got created Julia […]

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My reunion with Julia

Here’s an example of the kind of thing I called “supernatural” in a recent post. First let me give you a little background. My girlfriend Julia and I became a couple 31 years ago but in 2004 we broke up and had no contact with each other for 14 years. About a year ago we […]

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Was this telepathy?

Here’s the story I mentioned at the end of the previous post. Many years ago (39 to be exact) I had a girlfriend who I will call Anna. One night while we lay in bed, about to go to sleep, she told me that she had experienced telepathy several times. The fact that we were […]

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How to destroy a vasana (example 1)

In this article, I’ll describe in detail how I destroyed a vasana which had tormented me for decades. Vasanas must be destroyed in order to realize the Self. This particular vasana was painful because it made me hate myself. Painful, self-hating vasanas are especially insidious. First I’ll tell you how the vasana got created. When […]

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Heraclitus on Pramada

About 18 years ago I noticed to my astonishment that all my life I had been unconscious in a certain sense while I was in the waking state. Another way of saying that same thing is that I began to see what it means to really be conscious. The first sentence is negative and the […]

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The desire for God is God

A couple of days ago I mentioned a conversation with the Goddess, and Focus asked me to say more about it. Before I describe the conversation, let me tell you the background. During the summer of 2015 I began to have many mystical experiences. They were very intense for a few months and then tapered […]

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Is this post a private message for somebody?

On my way home from the supermarket a few minutes ago, the idea popped into my head that I should write about something that happened in India in 1985. This story doesn’t seem very interesting, and it’s not related to enlightenment in any obvious way, so I rejected the idea. But the idea won’t leave […]

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You don’t hit a dog, you pet a dog

I’ve written before about the autistic boy who I’ve loved and taken care of for years. I should stop calling him a boy because he’ll turn twenty this year. I’ll pretend his name is George. He has — or had — sociopathic tendencies. His father has told me that he himself is a diagnosed sociopath, […]

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Susie

I was living at my girlfriend’s apartment in the late 1990s when I got seriously interested in meditation. She had two cats, a male and a female. The female, who I’ll call Susie, was about fourteen years old, black, and very fat. She followed me everywhere in the apartment. When I sat at the desk […]

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